Sources of Strength

Why do I always

find my strength

from the wrong people?


It’s likely,

almost certain

the problem stems

from relying

on people

at all


But I’m not strong enough

to live and survive

on my own


And I’m so damn sorry

but I can’t help loving

beautiful people


Believe me,

I wish I was enough

for myself.

You made me happy.

Reading old conversations

give me hope again,

though I know

so many words

no longer ring true.

“You make me happy.’

I know you’ll never

say those words to me again

but I hope you’ll find

that feelings with

someone else

and maybe,

those words will reach my ears

from the lips of someone else



until then,

I’ll hold on

to the memory

of yours.